And so it is with people, all of us, who stoop or limp with disregarded pain, who wince and flinch at motions disconnected from conscious memory. We wear the mute scars of accidents we can't even recall, and become known by them. They work themselves into our character like the branding of cattle -- I am owned. If we are granted a lifetime sufficiently long, we might know something of ourselves. How can we know anybody else? Don't we have enough private pain, that we can feel the world's anguish only as a symbol?
Let us then be kind, and gentle. Let us be patient and generous. By doing so, we might pull together the shattered pieces of some broken heart and help it mend. We do not know the cause of every pain, but we know there is pain. We did not cause it, but what can we do to soothe it? It is the obligation only of conscience. We are not bound by it. But somewhere there has to be a rebuilding, so that the future is at least a little less bad than it otherwise would be. There must be some repairing, so that the distinction remains, between humans, and insects and animals. There has to be some sort of healing, some chance for it, not only at the level of tissues and cells, but in that unseen way, of remembered pain and dreams that succumb to bitterness.
Can’t we do this? I'll start. Just let me know you need it. Because I can see the signs, the scars, the flinch -- but I have courage only enough to feel compassion, and none to fend off a defensive attack. The way I'd do, if you approached me. Sorry. It's nothing personal. I've just learned to keep a safe distance. If that's your story too, well, then let's at least pass a wry smile between us. Maybe find something to laugh over. It's a start. We'll see who cracks first.
But anyone who loved me, I would cherish, and I would love them forever.
J
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